Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Feminism 101

Illustration obtained from Google.com

Out of curiosity, I went to attend a talk concerning Feminism held by the Monash Women's Affairs Collective. I have come across the word feminism quite a few times but I never really had the chance to meet not one but several self-acclaimed feminists.

So what is feminism? Feminism is a move initiated by females who questions men's deprivation and discrimination towards "the weaker sex" that they seek for equal rights and privileges. They started telling us about how it all started and how it comes to a huge demonstration in the sixties of women walking down the street and burning bras. Yes, that is right, burning bras. A way to imply the public that 'You know what? This is our bodies and we should be the one to do what with our bodies, not MEN!" Well, at that time, there were a lot of rapes, abuse and jail sentences to women who actually fought for what they believe in. Back then, the public considered these women insane for even thinking that they have the right for anything.

Well, I personally do not think that I am a feminist because I usually think that men are superior in the sense that they should be the breadwinners, the ones to protect you and your rock. However, nowadays the guys aren't that manly anymore, a handful of them are quite girly. Hard to find a real man these days. But back on the subject, it is fortunate for us females as we have groups of feminists fighting for our rights that we are able to work, be respected a bit more than before, be treated fairly better compared to the our ancestors. Attending this talk is really an eye-opener for me. Feel really blessed to be in the present.

Cheers to GIRL POWER!

Monday, July 30, 2007

It's Monday again

Mood: Monday Blues
Currently Listening to Listen to Your Heart by Roxette

It has been drizzling since 7:00am.

It hasn't cease yet.

Can't hang out my laundry.

Still wondering whether do I want to go to class or not....

Time is just passing by before me...

Sunday, July 29, 2007

Dinner is Served

Was planning to take a nap but end up sleeping for two whole hours straight! The best part is that when I woke up and walked down the stairs to get a drink, I heard Janice telling me that...

"Mei How, we are now cooking dinner for the whole house, is that all right with you?"

Are you KIDDING ME??? Of course is ALL RIGHT as my head screamed. LOL! We helped out to prepare as well...

and TA DAH!
Hokkien Char

Sunny-side up Eggs

Dinner is served!

Virginity

Got it from a forwarded mail... LOL!

A virgin girl is on the phone, talking to her boyfriend and asks him to come over and have dinner with her parents. Since this is such a big event, the girl announces to her boyfriend that after dinner, she would like to go out and make love for the first time.


Well, the boy is ecstatic, but he has never had sex before, so he takes a trip to the pharmacist to get some condoms. He tells the pharmacist it's his first time and the pharmacist helps the boy for about an hour. He tells the boy everything there is to know about condoms and sex.

At the register, the pharmacist asks the boy how many condoms he'd like to buy, a 3-pack, 10-pack, or family pack. The boy insists on the family pack because he thinks he will be rather busy, it being his first time and all.

That night, the boy shows up at the girl's parents house and meets his girlfriend at the door. "Oh, I'm so excited for you to meet my parents, come on in!"

The boy goes inside and is taken to the dinner table where the girl's parents are seated. The boy quickly offers to say grace and bows his head.


* * * * * * * * *
A minute passes, and the boy is still deep in prayer, with his head down.

* * * * * * * * *
10 minutes pass, and still no movement from the boy.

* * * * * * * * *
Finally, after 20 minutes with his head down, the girlfriend leans over and whispers to the boyfriend, "I had no idea you were this religious."

* * * * * * * *
The boy turns, and whispers back, "I had no idea your father was a pharmacist."

Saturday, July 28, 2007

Brand New Bag

Mood: Pumped Up
Currently Listening to Give It to Me by Timbaland feat. Nelly Furtado and Justin Timberlake.

Library books are due today and I can't assess my Monash Library website to renew them, which really sucks and I have to pay the fine on Monday. Sigh.... cleaned the whole house by sweeping and mopping the floors. I was thought to be a very typical day that is until my phone rang.....

My godmother (who is also my aunt) came down to KL for the weekend! Hmmm... the term 'godmother' does sound older compare to the word 'aunt'. Anyway, my aunt went to visit my cousin and her mum whom have just got back from China a few days ago. Along with them, we went to SAKAE SUSHI in Subang Parade for dinner. I was really "kou fu" (it means my mouth is blessed with food in Mandarin).

It was very interesting because it was my very first time to enter into a restaurant where we could place our orders with the built-in computer on the wall. Though it is efficient and food were served within minutes after we click the "CONFIRM" button, it does reduce a lot of interaction between the serving ones and the customers. It's just a weird feeling that I had at that particular moment. On the other hand, the food was great except the eel 'Unagi'. It tasted a bit different but not in a good way. There are no good quality Unagi nowadays as they are not from Japan anymore. Most stock were obtained from China as it is cheaper in cost. It was a major disappointment for me because I really like Unagi... not anymore though.

My cousin who went abroad to China to work, gave me a little present.

At first I thought that it was something for you to keep CDs in it, actually it is a handbag! It is really adorable with all it's comic strips! Man... I think I have too many bags already....


*YAWN* Au Revior people.......


*UPDATE: I finished Harry Potter and The Deathly Hollows in 6 hours! Not my best record though. It was surprisingly good and definitely better than the last two books. I love the way it ends it as part of me wants him to die and another of me do not want him to perish. The ending has both!

Thursday, July 26, 2007


I know I have been really outdated with the latest movies but I just finished watching Pirates of the Carribean: At World's End. I absolutely love it! Sure, it was definitely confusing in some parts, especially the part on the weird rock-looking crabs carrying the enormous ship (which makes no sense at all). I absolutely love the so-called wedding ceremony in the midst of war (corny yet hilarious!). It was amazing! I really need to get the DVDs once they are all out! It was really exciting! I wonder will they make a fourth movie? I doubt it but it would be cool!


Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Celebrities in Jail

This is getting ridiculous! First, Paris Hilton was sent to jail for 23 days and now, Lindsay Lohan?! This beyond insanity. The next thing they will say that getting arrested and sent to jail will the new "IN" thing! This is really sad to see these people just messing up their lives in public. Fortunately, we get to mess up without anybody knowing. Honestly, I wouldn't be surprise if Britney Spears is next.

Photos obtained from Google.com

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Something I Never Thought I Would Tell

My tummy aches..... it's really messing up my emotions. Today, I went through pain to moodiness to isolation and to distractions. Was watching ANTM, short for America's Next Top Model. Watching other people fighting, arguing and getting on each others' nerves does distract the pain in my stomach. Sigh.... It's low and pathetic, I know. Yet, it is entertainment.

I used to imagine myself as somebody that is great - a model, singer or performer. Those types of jobs look absolutely glamorous and you don't see the how much hard work has been placed in it. That's why I used to think these types of profession looks easy. Imaging myself doing a little pose or sing or dance on stage. I still do it when I'm all alone. I put on my headphones, pump up the music and a totally different exciting person is out! Seems like there is a fantasy land where you can run to and be whatever you want to be without working hard or pleasing other people. Just having fun to believe that it is possible even though it is impossible. Have you try that before? In your little corner, when no one is around, doing things that you never thought that you would do? It's an amazing feeling and it does boost my confidence in myself. When I get my mind back to reality - to whatever I was doing, I said to myself, "I can do this!" :P

The Last Book


I am extremely shocked to see that the book Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollow is thinner than the last book! It was really unexpected because I was thinking that it would be the thickest of all! And I didn't think that Serene would lend the book to me so soon! I can't wait to read it... I wonder what will be the final outcome in the entire story~

Monday, July 23, 2007

Bursting out

Everybody makes choices everyday. Choices that are either right or wrong, acceptable or non-acceptable and big or small. Sometimes I felt that people makes a bunch of bad decisions and I start commenting in my head what that particular person should do or not do. Eventually, I realized that I make a hell lot more of bad choices, it might be even more than other people. So much that it hurts somebody else. At times, I really hate this growing stage. I hate it that you have to choose when you have absolutely no idea what you want. I really dislike making decisions but I have to make decisions every single moment. Whether I like it or not, I still have to do it. Sigh... I know that when I say I don't like to make decisions, it shows that I'm being ignorant. And I just don't know why I end up like that. Just wanted to let something out off my chest...... *deep breath*

Do it Yourself

Got this from a forwarded email. This lazy old bum deserves it!

Sunday, July 22, 2007

Eating Weekend

Well... it was definitely an unproductive weekend. I did study a bit but not as much as I wanted to. I, on the other hand, have been stuffing food down my throat these two days without spending a dime. I got lucky :P but that doesn't mean I'm going to take things for granted. So I have to think of someway or something to repay that wonderful and sweet sister. She not only let us (Ho Chian and I) stayed over her place for the weekend, she also paid for our lunches and dinners. Ate Japanese food twice and KFC. Ugh, I am definitely gaining weight. Sigh... It is that time again... DIET TIME....

I gotta crash, have an early class tomorrow. Toodles~

Saturday, July 21, 2007

Boring Saturday

The sisters living in the sisters' house all except me went to Melaka for a campus blending conference for the weekend. Sigh.. how I wish I could go. I would love to see other sisters and brothers from different states and hear their prophecies. Sigh.. it's my fault anyway for not going. Sigh... so bored.

Woke up at 8am this morning, had KL-styled 'chee cheong fun' for breakfast. A bit too salty for me. Study Cellular Metabolism for a while and then slept again for another half an hour. I just don't understand why I am so sleepy today. Also I don't understand how some people can just sit at the very same spot and study for a few hours straight. I don't know why I can't do that.

Went to Sunway Pyramid with other sisters for late lunch, a very late one. By the time we got our food at MR. TEPPANYAKI, it was already 4pm. So, yeah I am still barely hungry.

Well at least there is one thing to look forward for today. Ho Chian is coming back from her hometown! I can't wait to see her!

Yes, I am dead bored. I took this out of sheer boredomness.

I'm going out for dinner now people.

The question is.....



WHAT WILL I EAT??????


Friday, July 20, 2007

Anatomy Lab

We had our first anatomy lab yesterday, so I was pretty excited. No, we don't get to see dead bodies yet, I don't think we get to see that in course either. I was kind of excited to see and touch real bones. It was pretty cool, though we have to learn all the terms describing the location and position, we had fun with it.

That's Hui Wearn - a new friend I made :P

Hmm... are we paying attention to the lecturer?

Thursday, July 19, 2007

Penangnites are up and about!

On 18-07-07, I went out with my Penang buddies to One-Utama. At the beginning of the semester, we would get together at least once before the assignments and lectures starts pilling up. Right after lecture which concludes at 7pm, we immediately took off to One-Utama. As the typical Malaysians, there were traffic jams everywhere. We got to One-U at about 8 something which was considered quite fast. And as usual, we don't know what to eat. We will keep passing the ball till somebody comes up with something or suggestion that everyone can agree on. After discussing for more than 20 minutes, the final decision goes to Vietnam Restaurant.

I was a bit uncertain at first because I have never try Vietnamese food before and I was kind of worried that it will be too spicy for my taste buds. Once the nine of us sat down at the restaurant, we were browsing through the menu, the food there were pretty expensive. So all of heads turned to YZ and told him to lower his voice because he is without a doubt, notorious for speaking foul-language aloud. All of us started to tease him about the numerous times that he did it in public.

Food were definitely amazing - for some dishes only, of course.

Seafood Fried Mee - I tried a bit and it was tasty!


Chicken Chop with Rice and Egg - a little spicy but pretty delicious!


Vietnamese Chicken Curry Rice - 1, 2, 3! Drool.........


Parisan Grilled Chicken - YUM....!

All of them said that I am a camera freak! I took pictures of everyone when they are eating and accidentally caught some action :P Well I don't care! Click here for more pictures. We had a lot of fun just talking about crap and everything else under the sun!

As the night was still young, we went to Chili's for dessert! Serene recommended 'Hi and Mighty Pie' and there were nine of us, we ordered two. Three of us girls and Alex loved the pie however Kee Chaw and Theng Wee were complaining that it was too sweet! They really got no sweet tooth at all! It was really really good, the combination of vanilla ice cream, Heath candy, Oreo crumbs with chocolate and caramel sauce, it was just AMAZING! I absolutely LOVE it!

Hi and Mighty Pie - SWEET!

After enjoying an amazing meal (I absolutely adore FOOD) with great company, it was time to leave. I wish we could do this all the time, but that is kinda impossible.

Helped A Bird and Killed a Lizard

16th July - Night

I were downstairs to grab a drink to quench my thirst when I saw my housemate, Ho Ching was holding something in her hand and she was smiling mischievously as if she wanted to scare me with some disgusting or gruesome bug or animal. Instead, it was a really REALLY ADORABLE bird! Apparently this hapless bird had flow into my housemate's room and fell into the floor of her bathroom. She adores animals and so she picked it up and started to pat it gently on its head and slowly stroking it. The bird was just sitting there on her palm and letting her touch, such a docile creature. I also get the opportunity to hold it too, it was really really cute! Then, Krystal (another housemate) said that we should name the little creature. She came up with the name PETPET. I don't know how she figure that out but we were pretty much astounded.

Finally, we decided it was time to let it go to the big bad world. Petpet was hooked to Ho Ching's finger and wouldn't let go. It was drizzling a bit. Maybe Petpet was a bit frightened. However, we wanted to get back to our own stuff, we sort of force it to let go. It took a while and it pooped on Ho Ching's finger before it took off! Gee... great way to show gratitude, but I guess we put a little too much pressure on it. This is the kind of thing you don't see everyday. :)



17th July - Night

I personally don't like any rodents or bugs or lizards or spiders. Tonight, I have the opportunity.. wait, cut that, I have the obligation to kill a lizard. I am not afraid of them as long as they stay away from me and that they don't drop from the ceiling. At home, mum will be the exterminator, killing all the cockroaches, lizards and other gross creatures that I can't think of right now at this moment. Here, I have no choice. So I rolled up several sheets of newspaper, and stood as far as the length of my "weapon". WHACK! miss it~ WHACK! WHACK! WHACK! damn! miss it again. After several blows, it was coming right at me and I was jumped and slammed down the newspaper at it even more. Finally, I got it. What a relief! I'm glad that's over.

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Great start~!

Man... these few days are really ridiculously interesting and busy as well. Aided a bird, killed a lizard, fishing in class, went out with friends and had whole lot of fun! Will update all by tomorrow... hopefully. :)

Monday, July 16, 2007

Resolution No. 3

As I said earlier, I like things that are new, not just material things as well as new environment. However, NEW does not necessarily mean that it's of good quality. Let me see if I can put this simply.

New Day, New Campus, New Lecturers, New Facilities = Few yet Poor Quality of Food in the Cafeteria, Air conditioners broke down, No Maps on the 3 levels of Library, Computer Slides Not working... well you get the idea. I think it is safe to say NOT A SINGLE THING IN THIS UNIVERSE IS PERFECT.

I got back home after class, and since it is the first day, I chilled out a bit. I watched Shrek 3 on DVD. Pretty entertaining but I still prefer the Shrek 2. After watching the whole show, I said to myself, "DAMN! I didn't make a resolution for today!" I was trying to get myself off the hook by doing something simple or I had done in the day time. I can't do that because I would be lying to myself and it is just the third day I started this, I don't want to give up so early. So as punishment, I would study today. I never study on the first day and many sane people does the same thing too. Oh well.. good night people. I'll be hitting the books.... this will be interesting *sarcasm*

Everything is NEW

After a ridiculously hot day, now Sunway is having a really ridiculous downpour! Such ridiculous weather we have around here. I have been perspiring all day walking back and forth from the new Monash campus to the old one and back to where I stay. And now it rains.... Sometimes I really do not understand weather at all. Or maybe I should start listening to the weather report on the radio.

Today is the first day of the new semester in our BRAND NEW MONASH campus. Since it is situated a bit further away, so I have to walk more. It is about 15 minutes walk. As if having a warm morning isn't enough, the air conditioner in the lecture theater had broken down. Yeah... I'm just complaining too much. However, it was great seeing your course mates after the mid-term break. Everyone was still a bit lost on how to go about the new campus. It is ridiculously huge. Yet, I really like new things, especially new environment. It gives you the new experience for you to explore up and down. Though I am very disappointed with the cafeteria. It is much smaller compared to our old campus. And food selection-wise, pitiful. Worse, it is expensive too! Oh great, I'm complaining again.

"Think positive,
think POSITIVE,
THINK POSITIVE!"

Well, I have a class that starts at 5pm so I better get going. Will update a little more tonight. Peace out people!

XOXO

Sunday, July 15, 2007

Just Pops Right Out of My Mind

After a continuous ridiculously hot weather here in KL, it rained! Not just for a while but it rained the whole afternoon! This really boost my mood level to high. Still, in the back of my head, I know classes start tomorrow; moreover, it starts at eight in the morning. Sigh....

As I have said yesterday, my resolution for this semester is to set a small objective daily for me to achieve. Yesterday, my timetable was planned and it shall be put to the test starting tomorrow. For my today's goal, I am going to finish reading the book 'THE PURE IN HEART' which I kept putting it off. This book is written by Witness Lee. THE PURE IN HEART basically gives you an insight on the different conditions of our hearts when encountering various situations and problems. Interested? Click here

This morning, the sisters and I were talking about chicken pox. I don't know how we got into that topic but it was really a touching phase for me when I had the chicken pox. I remembered I was in Standard Four, I was just ten back then. I saw a tiny round droplet-like shape sitting on my knee. Out of curiosity, I poked it and it burst. I thought it was nothing at all but when I got home after school, I got more of those tiny protruding droplets all over my body. As I was about to start breaking all these little 'bubbles', my mum immediately stop me! Thankfully she did, or else my body will be filled with minute concaves. That would be a horrible sight.

I didn't go for class for two weeks or less. I was so weak and tired all the time. All I wanted to do back then was to lie down, that's it, nothing else. I said this was a touching moment for me because that is the first time I realized that my Mum loves me. She was there hand and foot for me. I can't even take a bath because there were these chicken pox all over my body and sometimes I was even too vulnerable to stand on my two feet. I can still recall clearly that my mum brought two chairs into the bathroom, laid me down and helped me washed my hair. Yeah, I know, I sound a bit pathetic and useless. However, at that time, it was that particular moment, I felt so loved and filled with comfort. She is definitely my rock.... I guess I better grow up and don't disappoint her and my dad anymore...

Saturday, July 14, 2007

Reality beginning soon

I had taken three showers today and it isn't dark outside yet. It's so hot today. I would start to sweat right after I got out of the shower. This is really ridiculous! The weather here in KL is really dragging me down. Moreover, classes is starting next week.

I will work hard
I will work hard
I will work HARD..... constantly telling myself.

On a different subject, lately, I have been using the word "ridiculous" a lot. Yeah.. That's settles then, "ridiculous" would be MY main phrase for the week; starting next week.

Day One, Goal One

I am back in KL, in other words, I am back to the big reality. Today is a brand new day, I am gonna make a new goal everyday for me to keep up with. One small goal seems like it is a little but I'm still trying to make a change in my life. So my goal for today is to plan ahead my timetable for my semester. Will update more later. By the way, a HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my old pal, SHANKAR!!! He is my good friend during our college year together :P

Thursday, July 12, 2007

Unforgiven

I messed up everything.
I took things for granted.
I was so naive.
and now, I have to see someone I care and love most - cry.
How could I be so immature & stupid????!?!?!?!?
I really HATE myself for doing the things that I had done...
But it's too late now..
No matter what I say, I can never see that smile.
That's why, I am gonna make a change.
I had to.....

Sunday, July 08, 2007

Triple Seven on A Saturday Night

Yesterday was triple seven, seventh of July in two thousand seven, 777. It's funny, I don't remember people getting excited as much last year when it was 666. Most probably it's the number that represents Satan. Anyway, I didn't really care whatever the date it was. I just went out and met up some of my old college friends.

Sin Ling, Me, Kenneth and Kayson

It felt like ages since we last saw each other. Sin Ling is one of my closest buddies in college. Though she is in SP and I'm in KL, we still in keep in touch, we are still as close, sharing secrets and what's going on with our lives. Only one thing is missing, is our beloved Soo Zhen. Sin Ling, Soo Zhen and I were inseparable during our college year. However, she is in Perth right now, so it is a shame that she couldn't make it. Both of us miss her like crazy. Anyway, back to Sin, her sister had her wedding registration and that's why, my sweet Sin Ling was dolled up!!! I was extremely shocked to see her this way. The last time I saw her with make up was our Disted Prom Night as shown below. Soo Zhen is the one standing right behind Sin Ling.

Then there is Kenneth. He is extremely fluent with his English and uses big words that I pretty much do not understand. When I saw him, I was a bit surprised that he had become chubby. He is still pretty much the same, he talks a lot! You'll never run out of anything to talk about. And I noticed that he shaved. Then I started to imagine him with mustache, in my head, it was definitely a funny sight.

Last but not least is Kenneth's close friend Kayson. Kayson was in Disted Stamford College for only a few months before he got a place in a university in Perth. So I didn't know him very well. My last impression of him was like, "A Chung Ling graduate, damn smart and works hard." Now, he is pretty much the same except that he is much more mature in his thinking and actions.

We were catching up with each other's lives and that's when Kenneth had to leave early (that was ten o'clock). That leaves only the three of us. We sat there, drank and talked and talked and talked. It was then it hit me that how much we have grown. I mean we were talking about politics, our dreams and our future. It was a bit frightening at first, yet it was comforting that you are not alone in this. Everyone is going through stages in life and it is nice to know that you got friends you can call up and joke around. Finally, it was time to leave and I got home at exactly midnight and right on the dot. It was a first for me to be out this late. It was fun seeing them. I would love to do this again.

Saturday, July 07, 2007

A Wet Saturday Morning




Woke up, freshen up, had breakfast and *BOOMS* it rains heavily. The wind is howling towards North, causing rain drops in front of the lawn, making pavement all damped. This is a brand new morning that is cool, breezy and fresh. I'm definitely loving it. Well, I better get ready take off as the rain finally slows down a little. Au Revoir people.

Friday, July 06, 2007

Something Different

It was sitting there, untouched for a few years now. Out of the blue, I decided it's time. Once I sat down, took a deep breath and "DOINK!!!" oh.... oops! *embarrassed*


Yeah.. I haven't laid a finger on the piano for a couple of years now, so I'm very rusty. Playing for half an hour made me realize how much I missed out in practice. I can't play out a decent song without making tones of mistakes. So I really need to practice, practice and practice this week.

It finally rained today, well... more like a drizzle. Hey, it is better than nothing. Moreover, it is extremely windy too. I love the wind. Sometimes I wish it would blow so hard that it could blew me from places to places. It makes you feel like you are floating on cushions of air, flying and reaching to the skies... But it never happens.. Sigh..



Thursday, July 05, 2007

This isn't helping at all

Temperature is certainly rising here... It's HOT in here! I really can't stand the weather that we are having these few days. The sun is glowing so radiantly today, so brightly that its rays of light generates that "slight" discomfort feeling which is sufficient to give an eleven out of ten scale result to achieve that fine line of irritation & grumpiness. Though I love that the sky is sparkling blue and I can go outdoors to have fun, this is just simply ridiculous! I think if I stay outside for too long, I'll be become a black girl in a short time. Maybe I should start talking like one.... *deep in thought* Hmmm... maybe not *shakes my head frantically*. Being a laughingstock is the last thing I want to be.

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

Complain Complain Complain

I'm slacking like mad... I have been doing anything except studying. I've been watching America's Next Top Model, House MD, reading manga and shopping. Yes, shopping is a great way to exercise and work out that includes burning your pockets. Sigh.. Why am I so darn weak?

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

The Start of Something That is Not New

Ahh... finals is over for the semester but then again, it is not literally over for me. Why? I'm going to tell you why. Though I try to be optimistic on every situation that occurs to me, I do tend to be very realistic about it. So here goes.. Out of the four papers, I think one or two papers are total goners. From the moment I step out of the examination hall, I said to myself, "I'm dead meat." Yes, we heard a thousand people exclaiming to the whole wide world that "It's over, I'm dead!" or "I'm sure gonna fail this!" but do they actually fail the paper - no they don't.

Anyway, after having a conversation on this with my mum, she said to me, "during your two weeks break, you better hit the books!" I guess I deserved it. I let the environment, the people & personal issues affect my concentration. Up till now, I still do not feel the importance of working my ass off to get a basic undergraduate degree. I do not feel it but I know it's crucial for the time to come. That's when my momma said, "Grow Up!" Yeah.. I know, I know. I'm thinking and acting like a little girl that everything is gonna be all right and everything is going to be okay. And the stupid thing is, I thought I had grown up. Apparently not by the looks of it.

It is the beginning of the mid-term holidays, I am slacking A LOT and I am studying a NANO-bit. It is a brand new day, I need to grasp every opportunity to make things better, not just for myself but also for someone Great. Adios~ Will update more soon *winks*