Should I terminate the link to part of my memories...?

I have been thinking about something for the past few days now...
and I still couldn't make up my mind about it... Sigh...
The thing that I have been thinking about is...

whether or not...

should I or should I not....

DELETE my Friendster account? Before you whack me in the head saying that this is not something you should ponder about for a few days, let me explain first...

The Reason to DELETE Friendster ACCOUNT
I don't use Friendster anymore, I prefer Facebook. What is the point of keeping an account when you need to constantly try to recall your password whenever you want to log in? Besides, I don't update my Friendster anymore, neither do most of my friends... I think most of them switched to Facebook as well...

HOWEVER...
The ULTIMATE Reason to KEEP Friendster ACCOUNT
The testimonials... Gosh I got them way back from college days... Brings back a lot of memories... College was the best time of my life because that was when I fell in love, got a whole lot of punching bags, scratching posts, met two of my best friends... I was just looking through them and gosh.. I really couldn't bear to delete the account anymore... GGGAHHHH... What should I do??!??!

Let me show some of the few testimonials that I really really like!

This is my one and only husband :D
My scratching post

My outstanding feature!

My nicknames
My darling (we share the same husband) *wink*

It really does bring back a lot of wonderful memories...
well... wonderful for me... maybe not so for the guys...
After a long battling between the pros and cons... the final verdict is... I just don't have the heart to delete my Friendster account just yet... Oh well....

Raindrops keep falling on my head

August is coming to an end and it's time to embrace September.... - "so fast!"

Wednesday, for this semester, is the busiest and mentally challenging day of the week. Two lab sessions in a day, I can feel drained at the end of the day. There's plenty to do and yet at the same time, there is plenty of time to get to know your neighbors better. Having fun and work at the same time - not bad at all =P

Anyway, I was drenched from head to toe when my legs brought me home. Why??? Because I did not bring my umbrella, ella, ella and it was raining moderately. I didn't really mind the rain really... to me, it just like taking a shower... well except that it is in public *smiles* As I was soaked thoroughly, it really brought me back to my high school days... so nostalgic. I used to wait at a T-junction further away from high school for the my mum's conveinence to drive through. It saves her the trouble from making a turn here and there. There were definitely times that I didn't bring my umbrella, so I would wait in the rain for my mum. Hehe.. I loved it! Just water sprinkle on your face, somehow to me... it is refreshing. Then again, there is the issues of getting a cold or fall sick much rather easily, so this is not the sort of thing that can be done all the time. Hopefully I won't fall sick tomorrow.. *keeping my fingers crossed*

Finally, it stopped raining....

I doubt I will get old of this

Well, all assignments are all finished, passed up and done with! As of starting from tonight onwards, I shall keep my laptop in isolation until I finish all my exams. So you guys won't be expecting me to update anytime soon. Hopefully I can last that long... Keeping my fingers crossed! However, I do wanna share something with you all. Well, some of you may know that I got my name Kimberly from the tv series "Mighty Morphin' Power Rangers". Even if you don't know... well.... NOW YOU DO. I was just browsing YouTube again and I found out that there was actually another Power Rangers movie with Amy Jo Johnson in it! I didn't think she would play a role since she left/got kicked out from the tv series. Yeah... I guess you can probably figured it out that I only watched Power Rangers when she was in it. This time she is evil~! Chills...~~ Hehehe... I cannot believe I'm excited over a very childish movie clip. Oh what the heck... it brings back good memories.


"Oh ya, and sweetie... pink is OUT!"

P.S.
All the Best everyone!

What Should I Do?

At this very particular moment, I wish I could scream, I wish I could throw a tantrum and I wish I could slap or hurt somebody. Three wishes. If Genies do exist, I know I will regret it.

I just had to get out of the house. Too suffocating for me. Walking did relieve a little of the mix emotions that I am having this early morning. It made me breathe and also did calm me down. However, as I am typing this post, all the anger, frustrations, humiliations, guilt, sorrow and hate are slowing creeping back in to the chambers of my soul. It's always the little things that bothered me. ALWAYS. It is never the big things. Um... well... this time is quite big... at least to me. I still think I deserve to be respected as a friend or as a sister. I have my dignity too. I tried. I tried. I just can't stand it anymore. Here it goes again, my mind is now filling with doctrinal truths. I don't even know how to act anymore. Now I know why I can't open up or tell them how I feel, because I have obtained my Dad's genes.

I was thinking a lot lately about my youth. I remembered when I was younger, I was cheerful and not much worries. I guess it's because I confined a lot of my problems to my Mum and she is always there to guide me and made me see the positive part of the whole situation. I still confined my problems to my Mum but I realize she can't always give me the recipe to solve the situation. I can't always depend on her to fight my battles. I need to face them myself, or else how am I suppose to grow up? I wish I could just let time pass by and let it take its toil of the entire situation. I don't think I want to do that anymore. It's tiring and it's too fake. But how? Right now, I don't even want to see her face or talk to her. To be quite honest, I don't know what I want from her. I don't think I want an apology, neither do I want her to pretend nothing ever happen. I just don't know how to act anymore. Be myself - to scream at her? I would love to do that but I know I won't. I don't think I want to either. I am ignoring her already. Not be myself - accept what had happen, forgive her and just move on? Did that too many times, it's building up in me.

At least I feel much better now. Writing does relieve me. Anyway, I want to go and get something to eat. I just came out of the house with an empty stomach. Till next time~

Just Pops Right Out of My Mind

After a continuous ridiculously hot weather here in KL, it rained! Not just for a while but it rained the whole afternoon! This really boost my mood level to high. Still, in the back of my head, I know classes start tomorrow; moreover, it starts at eight in the morning. Sigh....

As I have said yesterday, my resolution for this semester is to set a small objective daily for me to achieve. Yesterday, my timetable was planned and it shall be put to the test starting tomorrow. For my today's goal, I am going to finish reading the book 'THE PURE IN HEART' which I kept putting it off. This book is written by Witness Lee. THE PURE IN HEART basically gives you an insight on the different conditions of our hearts when encountering various situations and problems. Interested? Click here

This morning, the sisters and I were talking about chicken pox. I don't know how we got into that topic but it was really a touching phase for me when I had the chicken pox. I remembered I was in Standard Four, I was just ten back then. I saw a tiny round droplet-like shape sitting on my knee. Out of curiosity, I poked it and it burst. I thought it was nothing at all but when I got home after school, I got more of those tiny protruding droplets all over my body. As I was about to start breaking all these little 'bubbles', my mum immediately stop me! Thankfully she did, or else my body will be filled with minute concaves. That would be a horrible sight.

I didn't go for class for two weeks or less. I was so weak and tired all the time. All I wanted to do back then was to lie down, that's it, nothing else. I said this was a touching moment for me because that is the first time I realized that my Mum loves me. She was there hand and foot for me. I can't even take a bath because there were these chicken pox all over my body and sometimes I was even too vulnerable to stand on my two feet. I can still recall clearly that my mum brought two chairs into the bathroom, laid me down and helped me washed my hair. Yeah, I know, I sound a bit pathetic and useless. However, at that time, it was that particular moment, I felt so loved and filled with comfort. She is definitely my rock.... I guess I better grow up and don't disappoint her and my dad anymore...

~Memories~

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Recall the past to start off the new year

“Time flies” is undoubtedly the most common phrase used, especially when something or event has just passed you by. It is just like now; the year 2005 is leaving to make room for the new year of 2006. Actually, it had already left! SEE??? Time will just keep ticking by, whether you realize its presence or not. It does not wait for anyone. To me, the year 2005 just flew by right before my very eyes. And now, I’m trying to recall what had happen at the early stages of my fresh new start in the year 2005.

At the beginning of 2005, I had to redo what I had done in the year before, which is to repeat the foundation course that I had took, as I did not obtain the satisfactory results needed to get into the course that I’m interested in. I guess I was young and foolish to let that happened. I did not realize what I had gotten myself into. At that particular moment, I kept reminding myself that I need to do well no matter what. Heck! That was easier said than done; and I knew it from the very start that this year was not going to be smooth flowing for me.

One the first day, from the moment I entered into the lecture room, (I remembered it was ESL class) I felt a sense of relief as I saw a familiar face in the crowd. I’m so glad that one of my ex-classmate was retaking the course too. THANK GOD! I was so worried that I wouldn’t fit in with all the new faces in the class; at least I know that there is someone that I knew. With that, I did not feel so awkward anymore. Needless to say, I sat beside him for the first few weeks to keep myself company until I’ve made some new friends. When the lecturers of the previous year whom I’ve gotten along with, saw me taking their class, they questioned why I was doing this and bla bla bla… I felt a tinge of embarrassment to take their classes again. One thing I’ve known about lecturers is that: Once you’ve gotten real close with them, they will be concern about you and your life.

The ESL lecturer that I had in 2004 was different compared to 2005. My first impression about her was that she was a fragile looking early-forties lady. As I progressed throughout the year, I found out that she was a VERY fragile person and apparently had short-term memory PLUS she thinks she is a SAINT! Let me list out her ‘favourite’ phrases that I had heard numerous times that I’ve known them by heart

1: “Now, please MR/MISS SO & SO! Others are trying to listen in the class!”

2: “You all DO NOT listen! I’ve been telling you over and over again, I do not like to repeat myself, but you all do not listen!”

3: “I’ve been too kind to you all! You all do not appreciate the things that I’ve done for you!”

4: “I’ve been up to two in the morning making these notes for you all, and yet you all do not listen!”

5: “That’s why I say, LISTEN! Whatever comes out of my mouth is important!”

Sigh… I’m really going to miss all her ‘words of wisdom’ (crossing my fingers). The other four lecturers were all the same from last year. They are still all right.

The year 2005 has been pretty educational. I’ve definitely learnt much more other than in the academic field. Dealing with friends, I find, is the most difficult subject of all. There are some friends that I grew to be very fond of and love to hang out with them. A few of them only seek for you when they need to fulfill their curiosity and doubt. I really dislike this kind of people. However, if you are stuck with them for the whole course, you have to learn how to deal with them. Another fraction of the population of students in class, are plain snobbish and so darn full of themselves. These people, in my opinion, are very overconfident about themselves but tend to pretend that they are not. Moreover, they would do anything to be in the center of attention whenever possible. And there is a small group of people which I do not get the chance to know them better. That’s fate, I guess.

The only one thing that I’ve had regretted doing is that I kept comparing the friends that I had in 2004 with the friends I had in 2005. During 2005, I missed my friends in 2004 but I’ve should have known that people are different and unique. I’m sorry for what I’ve done and I hope all of us will stay in touch. Well, like the Chinese old saying goes, “Zhou yi bu, xue yi bu”. It means in each and every step you take in you life, you will learn something out of them.