in the land of the pig, the butcher is king

"WE DO NOT WISH TO BE ENSLAVED ANYMORE!!!"
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"FREE US!!!"
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"ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!!!"
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"FREEDOM!!"
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Students in Monash do not need to hold these signs when times are tough, it is written all over their faces. Yes, there is a warfare going on here in Monash - final examinations (students worst nightmare). Everyday is like a battle, one after another. This is the only time when you can see girls wearing less make up, hair all over the place, deeper eye bags while guys are seen wearing wrinkled clothes and some wore the same shirt for two to three days... it is an exaggeration but you get the idea. ^_^ And as for me, I just got out of the battlefield unharmed. I think I did ok but there are no certainties *keeping my fingers crossed* However, war is still not over until next week. Sigh... No blogging for another week... *pout*

When things do not go my way....

After I had finished my 'didn't-go-so-well' examination on Friday, I gave myself a self-declared holiday for a week (even though classes are still going on). Yes, people, I am back to my humble abode all the way back to the Pearl of the Orient! It has been a crazy two weeks and I am sure it will get crazier now I am back home. Let me tell you what happen during my exam day. It's going to be a long and whinning post.

Friday 24th April 2009
I got up early in the morning, feeling rather queasy and nervous at the same time. It was the exam day and I felt totally unprepared at all. I left the house at 6:15AM and reach the Imperial Hotel KL at 7-ish in the morning. I was the earliest and there was nobody around. It was pretty scary at first but then I realized that my exam was scarier, I calmed down straight away. As I was doing some last minute revision, people started coming in... OLDER people were coming in... I was wondering did I got the exam date correct... I panicked for just that tiny moment thinking whether did I got the correct venue. After a while a lady started to brief us about what was going to happen during the exam and all the necessary registration stuff yadda yadda yadda... Apparently I was the only one taking the MCAT exam while the rest were taking some exams on accounts and business. Anyway, it was time for the exam. As I went in the room and registered myself for the exam, the computer went "SYSTEM ERROR".

*speechless*

WHAT THE HECK... ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!?!?!?!?!?!?

After the lady tried and tried again, she asked me to wait outside while she went to check with the main office. I was trying to calm myself down but then my mind started to think about other things such as "maybe I do not need to take my exam today" or "maybe it is just a technical problem" or "maybe I can go home" etc etc. Yupe, I was running away again. I am such a coward. I always wanted to avoid any obstacles in front of my path. Sigh... So after waiting for 40 minutes, she finally got the system working and I could take my exam. I can honestly tell you, after those 5 hours, I do not even remember what I was doing or what answers did I enter. In other words, my exam went bad. No doubt about that. Sigh...

After my exam (ended around 12:30PM), I took the KL monorail and ended up in KL Sentral. I was thinking of buying some things to bring back to Penang. As I was juggling whether should I go to KLCC or One-Utama, I was approached twice by two different ladies asking me to donate for the less fortunate people. Asking me to donate is fine but when they are asking for more than what I had donated, that is when I draw the line. Anyway, after all that, it was decided that I go to One-U as I was told there are more things to browse. HOWEVER, the thing is that... I did an embarassing thing... I WENT ON THE WRONG BUS and I ended up where, you ask? I ended up in KLCC... -_-lll sweat... Well, since I had already made the mistake and I was already in KLCC, I took the time to look around. Apparently, there will be a fashion show later in the evening but I couldn't stay for that though. After walking around KLCC for around 45 minutes, I didn't see anything that I would like to bring back. So decided to go back to Plan A. I headed down to the KTM and asked which station should I go to if I want to go to One-U. The person who was attending to me told me that I should get off at the station at Taman Bahagia. Ok, fast forward. Once I reached Taman Bahagia, I went down to the bus stop and I told them that I wanted to go to One-U. And guess what the bus driver told me, "Di sini tak ada bas pergi ke One-Utama! Hanya pergi ke DAMANSARA UTAMA!" I was like..... O....K.... However the bus driver was kind enough to bring me another bus stop where I could get a ride to One-U. I basically took the time to enjoy riding around KL and Selangor. Wait... there's more. When the RapidKL bus that was going to One-Utama arrived, I got up the bus and I realized that I do not have small change. What happen then? The bus driver KICKED me OUT of the bus! Hahahahaha... in a way I can't helped but to laugh at the day I was having so far. After exchanging some notes with the people at the road side, I finally got on another bus and headed straight down to One-Utama. By the time I reached One-Utama, it was already 4:30PM! In my head, I was telling myself, "I gotta go back soon before it gets too dark!" My body refuses to listen to my brain and I walked myself into One-Utama and went window-shopping for about... 20-25 minutes. THere was no buses heading to Subang Jaya. So I had no choice but to take the bus back to KL SENTRAL again. And because of that, the bus was caught in the jam. People kept coming into the bus didn't help the situation at all! I was really tired then. Finally I reached KL SENTRAL and I bought the KTM ticket to Subang Jaya as the buses to SJ will not arrived for the next one hour or so. I didn't want to wait to I straight away bought the ticket. HOWEVER, suddenly the announcement came, "We are sorry but the train to KLANG has been DELAYED. The train will arrived in another 30 minutes time." Oh... well... since it was half an hour, I had McD's for dinner. That was 7:30PM.

You see, when a train is delayed, what happens to the next few trains? They will be delayed as well. Because of that, there were over 100 people waiting to catch the train!!! When the first train came, everyone just rushed into the train without letting any room for the people inside the train to get out. I was like, 'no way, I'm not gonna squeezed my way in'. So I waited for the second train which will be arriving 5 minutes later. The same thing happened for the second train as well! It was mayhem! Everyone is pushing each other just to get into the train! Again, I said to myself, "Forget it! I'll just wait another 10 minutes for the third train to come!" Finally, I got on the third train and headed back to Subang Jaya. By the time I reached Sunway Pyramid, it already was 9:00PM. I walked home, took a bath, packed a little and went straight to bed. What a tiring day!

Saturday 25th April 2009
My bus was scheduled to leave at 8:00AM and guess what time did I wake up? 7:15AM!!!!!!!!!!! I was like 'DAMNED!!!' and I quickly jumped out of bed and got myself prepared as fast as I could. My alarm clock took a fine day to fail on me! Argh! You can imagine what a mess I was in! Running here and there, looking for my ticket, making last minute packing and running to the Sunway Pyramid just to get on the bus! Thankfully, I got there in time and I did not forget anything.... After that, rest.............

And now I am back in Penang, enjoying and relaxing as much as I can before it's too late to do so... you will find out soon enough.... That's it for today.

Can you give me wings to fly away?

Somebody... anybody... please just shoot me right now...

FOUR more weeks till the MCAT exam...

I don't think I can make it... :'(

and apparently I can't make anything right these days... almost everything is going against me... study, exam and people... sigh... especially people... they are just too complex for me to understand... Maybe I'm just too cold to them... Damn...

I shall be there soon enough

Another ten more days before I head back to Subang Jaya...

-_-lll Suddenly I feel chills running through my spine....

A continuation of a hectic life awaits for my return...
Buddy Program - Late February
Two new subjects - The entire semester
MCAT - Middle of April
Simulated Patients Program - The whole semester (not confirmed yet)
Writer for SurfLoft.com - extension for a month or two? (Haven't decided)

Can I even manage?????!??!?! No idea.... -_-lll

Excited? You bet! Anxious... but excited at the same time!

I should not be here... blogging about my day

I should be studying or writing my article right now... obviously I'm not or else I wouldn't be here writing this post. I finally got a good comment from my brother. Oh.. wait let me rewind a bit and tell you the details...

As I had said before, I am preparing for an admission test which is consists of 4 parts - 3 parts are all MCQs and 1 part is essay writing. I asked my eldest brother to help me out with my essays because the suggested topics are related to law, politics, education... basically general knowledge. By the way, I DON'T HAVE GENERAL KNOWLEDGE!!! The only reason why I flipped through the newspaper is because of the entertainment section and the comic section. In other words, I hardly read newspapers. AT ALL. So you can see... I am totally screwed for this test. Shoo Shoo!! Shoo the negativity away!

I practiced writing two essays to my brother and his verdict was... in his exact words...

"Your english is really poor!"
"...there are much too many mistakes here for someone with your level of education."
I was like... DAMN. I trust my brother. He made my essay looked like a primary schooler quality. To think I have been deceived by some many people, saying that my english is good... Obviously you haven't met my brother.

"...your essay lacks an element of maturity."
Double the blow! I'm already in my early twenties and yet still I'm not considered as someone mature... sad...

"You need to plan out your essay." (paraphrased)
Sigh... that's my weak point. I always write whatever that comes to mind without really thinking about whether do I make sense or not. Just like right now. Not thinking much and just writing.

For my defence, I wrote each essay under the allocated 30 minutes. Actually it is just an excuse to make me feel less inferior anyway.

SO... today I rewrote one of the essays and took I don't know about 2 hours to complete it. I got a reply from my brother also 2 hours later and guess what he said?

"The tone of this essay is certainly better than the previous two that you've written so far..."
YES!!! I know I know, I get overhappy over little things like this! At least I could say I did my best. Downside is... I am still making grammatical mistakes and the time I used to write the essay was too long. I am glad he noticed that I am making the effort.

Back to the present, I should be working hard on my next essay and article for submission. However, every time I get a praise or a good commnet by someone, I slack.... I slack a whole lot. Just like right now, watching Singaporean's videos and reading XiaXue's blog. Tsk Tsk... Yupe I am definitely screwed if I don't buck up. I just don't get it why I can get so happy over little things like this??? That is something I will never know or don't bother to find out.

I better get back to work then... Maybe....

New Room

Well... 1 hour and 30 minutes more till the L.I.P. (Laptop Isolation Period) begins... Time is ticking!

Sometimes I do feel I am addicted to the laptop and internet. Hmmm... that's not good...

Anyway, it took me 5 hours to move from Room 1 to Room 2. I am beat! Right now my legs are killing me. But I'm glad that everything turned out to be all right. I wonder how this clean room can last...? =P

I hereby wish everyone luck in their examinations! Good Luck everybody! God's grace is ALL SUFFICIENT!

KimberlyMay signing out until the end of examinations.

Trading Places

SO... what do you guys think? How do you guys like the new look of my blog? TELL ME!

Well, as you all know, exams is just around the corner. I shall be putting my laptop in isolation... again. I told myself when my semester break ends, that's the time I will put away my laptop until the end of final examinations. Since I won't be writing, I decided to change the appearance of my blog. So... tomorrow will be the last day for me to mess around for this crucial period.

Oh! I forgot to tell you all, I'm moving! Yes, moving BUT not to a new place, just to a new room downstairs. Due to some arrangements, I am going to get a roommate! Therefore, I need a slightly bigger room. The thought of having a roommate does give me the feelings of uncertainty and insecurity. I always have my own room since I was young as I am the youngest and the only girl among my siblings. And even since I moved to Subang, I did had a roommate once when I was staying the sunway apartment hostel. To make the story short, I didn't like my roommate. Hence, when I moved to the sisters house, I asked for a single room. Now, the place is getting more crowded and I need to share room from the middle of October. Sure, it's hard to imagine what kind of characteristics my future roommate would possessed, but the experience itself is new and definitelyI will learn something out of it. On the bright side, my rent rate would be reduced into HALF!!!! Haha~!

Anyway, I'll stop here for now. Will write again tomorrow... if I have time. If not, this will be the last post until... I don't know... November? Most probably November. See ya!

Taking the Time to Write

First post in September - yes I know that it is kinda late and it is already the middle of the month. Well, first thing first, finals are in one month's time. Till now, it is still a shock to me - I'm wondering where has all the time have gone? Did I waste that much time? Though exams are still a month away, I still have A LOT to do, such as.....

1. Final Immunology Report (FULL)
2. MBB Report
3. Final Medical Microbiology Report (FULL)
4. Medical Microbiology Poster Presentation
5. Immunology Mid-Term Test
6. Medical Microbiology Mid-Term Test
7. Immunology Presentation
8. MBB Assignment 2

BWAHHH... I really really want to cry!!!!

Why?!!?!? WHY MUST they put everything in the end of the semester when we are all suppose to study!!!!?!?!? ISH!!?!?!?!?!?

Oh.. now I'm currently managing two blogs!
One is my own personal blog: http://kimberlymaylim.blogspot.com/
and the other blog is together with other sisters: Sisters-In-Christ
This particular blog is to mainly for sisters to share their experiences of the Lord and in the church life. It is still in under trial... that's why this blog is can only be viewed by invitation. When it is official, I shall let you all know =P

These few days, I have gotten a bit homesick, so I have decided to go back to Penang for a few days during the mid-term break. It won't be exactly a break at all as it is the time for us to catch up with all our studies for the upcoming finals....!!! Anyway, I gotta run! Will write more next time.... soon I hope... Toodles!

Finally!

Zilch… that’s my mobile credit I’m talking about. And yes, it has been a long, long, long journey through the examination period… finally I can say it’s OVER! Hell yeah! It’s all done. I’m glad that it’s over, even though the final paper was the toughest of all (hopefully I will be able to pass it). So what should I write about then? It’s been quite a while since I wrote something… oh wait… I have been writing… yeah… been writing the answers for the exams…. Well… that doesn’t count!

I learnt A LOT during my preparation for the finals. And no, I do not mean academically but spiritually and a lot about myself. For instance, I finally realized how I deal with pressure or stress – I stuffed myself with candy! Seriously, one day I was just sitting in the library, cracking up a book, and then it goes… one by one - Cadbury chocolates, Snickers, Snickles… You get the idea. So undoubtedly, gaining “A FEW” pounds is inevitable. You know what that means then, its exercise time~~

Okok… back to what I have just said, someone said something to me which made me pondered for quite some time. You see, I’m always the one telling others that we don’t have to care what others have to say negatively about us, as long as we are not doing anything wrong or out of principle. However, when someone cares about you tell you something personal about you, that is a time to actually listen. My friend saw me as a person who doesn’t show her true emotions in front of people and someone who is hard to see through... and I thought whatever I do or say was pretty obvious and out in the open.

I’m not going to let you in with all the minor details but as a conclusion out from all this is that I can’t change. That’s how I am. The only person who has the ability to transform me is God. He will make me as perfect as the Father is perfect (Matthew 5:48). So a note to my friend, I know you are not asking me to change, but I hope you can accept that sometimes there are things I do not wish to share with you or tell you what I am feeling, doesn’t mean that I treat you as an outsider. You don’t have to try to understand me because you can never understand me but only to a certain extent. So whenever you see me worrying or feeling down but do not wish to tell you, just pray for me. I will always find someone to tell my problems, someone that I can be very, very truthful with. The Lord Himself will deal with me both inwardly and outwardly.

As for now, my three weeks holiday will begin right at this moment! Well... technically two weeks only as for the third week, I'll be going to Sabah with the saints to participate in the Malay Conference held by our church. I need to brush up my Malay then :) Hmmm... two weeks... pretty short if you ask me. Hopefully I can make these two weeks worthwhile.

Oh! Another thing to add to this long post before I stop for the day. We had such a treat for dinner just now. A brother invited us (campus students) to have dinner at his house and guess what we had for dinner???

I haven't had crabs for ages! And it was so good! Haha!


This is the spicy one

That's it for today. Yeah... it is a long one today.

P.S.
To those who are in the midst of struggling and suffering examination blues, do not fret, my prayers are with you all! All the best!

The Usual Cup of Tea

Finals are approaching in exactly one month's time. During that one month, I still have to submit two presentations, three more reports, one literature review and one assignment! T.T All the best to all Monashians and any other students who are facing examinations soon as well! God's all grace is all sufficient!

Romans 12:12 - "Rejoice in Hope; Endure in Tribulations; Persevere in Prayer."

One Step A Day to Realize Something New

Another paper to totally forget about, Physiology. I still have two more papers to go and I'll be free from examinations for three months, I think... After the exam, took the time to have an early dinner with some of my house-sisters. Often I thought to myself that, we are all different people, coming from diverse cultures, brought up by parents with various perspectives in life and we are only brought together to stay in the same house because we believe in God. Through today's early dinner, I found that we are quite common in some ways. We get irritated at times, we like to have our own space, we like to pretend we don't mind about certain things because we don't want trouble, we always figured these things will soon pass away and we figured something better will come our way. The truth is... yes these things will soon pass away and something better will come our way but whether we take the time to overcome the problems that we face or the time to know the people around us, that is the real lesson that should be paid attention to. I never knew some of them are facing the same situations as I did and still do. I just realized time is constantly flying by and it's too precious to just let it go just like that. Some of my house-sisters are going to depart soon and follow the paths which God had prepared for them. Though time may not be on my side this time, I do hope I do get the chance to know them even more in times to come, even though there is a possibility that I do not get to see them anymore.

So, if you are reading this, you know who you are. In faith, I know we shall meet again. From the bottom of my heart, I wish you guys all the best and God's grace is definitely sufficient for us in every situations and every obstacles that we face. I will miss you guys dearly! Do keep in touch.

Mercy

Finally a moment for me to catch my breath. So far I have already sat for three papers and I still three more to go. The next paper will start next which gives me ample of time to prepare. I really gotta say, the Lord really blessed me with His presence during my examination for my past three papers. I knew I didn't study all the syllabus required for the examination, but the Lord really had mercy on me and help me got through it. I really Praise Him for being a merciful God. Though I had anxiety attack before the day of examination, the Lord had grant me peace and comfort. This really strengthen my consecration to Him. I won't tell you what I have consecrated but you will know soon enough. Praise Him!

A Break that I Do Not Need

Blah.... exams.... whether is preparing for it or having it, both can be really suffocating at times. At times I just really need to deny my natural self in which in this case is sloth and lack for determination. I really need to depend on the Lord, not to help me pass my exams blindly but to help me grow in life as I go through every obstacles that are hindering my journey. May the Lord's grace be sufficient for all whoever facing examinations.

By the way, on a separate topic, Monash students, do wear GREEN on Wednesday as it is Environment Day according to my friend. By wearing GREEN, it does not necessarily mean that one support nature or any other way, it is just an excuse to get free Starbucks vouchers! LOL!

It's that time again...

Mark this date.

In exactly 31 days from today onwards, will be the commencement of my final examinations for this semester.... Sigh... you know what that means... study study study and study... I feeling nervous already! So much to cover all the syllabus of all the four subjects in a constrained amount of time. Sigh... I guess I won't be updating as much as I would. Wish me luck people and pray for me! To those who will be having exams soon, I wish you all the best! Don't worry, I will pray for you too....

May the Lord bless us!

Depending on HIM

You said it's luck, I say otherwise.

This morning I had my final Microbiology quiz! I do not need to go for lab sessions anymore! I was happy for a mere five minutes, I think and reality hits me again, I still have an Anatomy test tomorrow. So I went to the library to meet my friend Wan Chi and studied with her. Of course, we did spent half the time talking though.... well, we are GIRLS! But we DID studied quite a bit! As time flew by, we went for a briefing on our industrial training at the end of this year. Can you imagine? I am actually gonna WORK! Well... just for two months but hey, it's must be something that is really different from study life I presume. Maybe this will expose me in a whole new way that maybe I would appreciate study life a bit more. Been slacking lately whenever I get any little free time.

The best news that I heard all day is that our tomorrow's Anatomy Test is POSTPONED till October the third!!!! I was so relieved and happy! I have been so worried about it as I didn't give much effort studying it. I am really thankful to the Lord for giving one more chance to make up for my mistakes. Right now, I just feel so blessed! Hehe... Anyhoo, I shall turn in now.... rest is necessary but God is inevitable!

The Things Around Me

It is a fact that we always take things for granted. ALWAYS. Friends, family and the material things around you, whether you realize it or not, those are the things that are constantly taken for granted. And as for today, I felt awful and was filled with guilt because I have taken advantage of the One who cares and loves me the most, who has never complain about my faults, forgave me over and over again, who knows how to comfort me better than anyone else - GOD.

In this final examination, I ran out of time and had to cramp everything that I have learned for the past few months in just several days before the exam for each paper. Though this is only the third paper and in my heart, I know it is not going to get over that border line, I felt that the Lord have mercy on me. He had provided me situations beyond my imagination and I know this is definitely beyond the term LUCKY. Thanks and praise the Lord for what He has done and for being the Wonderful One who is our all inclusive replacement. Amen.